just maybe you and i weren’t meant for each other
just maybe we were meant to cross paths and learn a lesson
just maybe we found each other , because we were both slowly giving up on love
just maybe we were part of each others process in learning to love once again
Locked in a prison, isolated, put away, dealing with my own demons . Nobody to blame but me. Here I stay. Thoughts overwhelm me , I could barley breath. Thinking to myself will I ever be free? Me, myself, and I do more damage than any other person can do to me . I put myself down never liking what I see in the mirror, seeing my past mistakes and problems appearing like the side mirror “objects are closer than they appear.” I thought they were slowly slipping away kinda like my faith. I’m like a ship lost at sea, searching for a lighthouse to lead the way.
She parties to feel surrounded
Yet deep down she’s lonely and hurting
One heart that can feel: lonely,bright red,depressed, happy,
one heart, many feelings
They expect us to have it all together, because the world says if you don’t you are worthless. They expect us to know exactly where we are going, because everyone else seems to know. They expect us to go to college after high school because it’s what the smart people do and it’s the only way to become wealthy. They expect us to be happy because the world is such a happy place and nothing seems to be wrong with it. They expect us to live life like crazy like do drugs, drink because c’mon you only have one life to live , so be reckless. They expect us not to work at fast food places because that’s where the uneducated and less motivated work. They expect men not show their weakness and not to cry because if they do, they aren’t really a man. They expect you to have the latest fashions, the newest cars, make great money to actually be considered human. They expect us to be fit and thin because if you aren’t you are lazy and disgusting. They expect women to have the same eyebrows and highlight; wearing the makeup how’s it is trending, if not you are ugly. They expect us to follow society’s long list on how to live, not knowing they themselves have their own expectations wrong. See you shouldn’t judge people because us people and the society have two different expectations.
Let me ask you a simple question; are you living or just existing?
Living is being yourself, laughing at your mistakes, really loving those around you, appreciating every day you get the chance to live, laughing so hard you are okay with being sore the next day. Doing what you love and never wanting to look back.
Existing is another whole world of living except you aren’t really living. You are just in the moment but aren’t really paying attention. You listen to those talking to you but you don’t really grasp it, it goes from one ear out the other. You laugh but you know yourself it’s not really your laugh. You hug those around you but it’s not what you want to do, so you’ll just play it off and act like it’s true. Your head is here, but your thoughts aren’t. You’re in the future, you’re in the past, but never in the present. So, you are just existing not really living.
So tell me are you living or just existing?
overthinking a side of your brain that doesn’t let you rest. killing the present you are in, overthinking your place and emotions . placing thoughts and things in your head that haven’t even happened yet. leaving you confused,
just in a bigger mess than you really are in.