she didn’t crave the drugs or alcohol, but she craves the love she knows she deserves.
She parties to feel surrounded
Yet deep down she’s lonely and hurting
One heart that can feel: lonely,bright red,depressed, happy,
one heart, many feelings
They expect us to have it all together, because the world says if you don’t you are worthless. They expect us to know exactly where we are going, because everyone else seems to know. They expect us to go to college after high school because it’s what the smart people do and it’s the only way to become wealthy. They expect us to be happy because the world is such a happy place and nothing seems to be wrong with it. They expect us to live life like crazy like do drugs, drink because c’mon you only have one life to live , so be reckless. They expect us not to work at fast food places because that’s where the uneducated and less motivated work. They expect men not show their weakness and not to cry because if they do, they aren’t really a man. They expect you to have the latest fashions, the newest cars, make great money to actually be considered human. They expect us to be fit and thin because if you aren’t you are lazy and disgusting. They expect women to have the same eyebrows and highlight; wearing the makeup how’s it is trending, if not you are ugly. They expect us to follow society’s long list on how to live, not knowing they themselves have their own expectations wrong. See you shouldn’t judge people because us people and the society have two different expectations.
Let me ask you a simple question; are you living or just existing?
Living is being yourself, laughing at your mistakes, really loving those around you, appreciating every day you get the chance to live, laughing so hard you are okay with being sore the next day. Doing what you love and never wanting to look back.
Existing is another whole world of living except you aren’t really living. You are just in the moment but aren’t really paying attention. You listen to those talking to you but you don’t really grasp it, it goes from one ear out the other. You laugh but you know yourself it’s not really your laugh. You hug those around you but it’s not what you want to do, so you’ll just play it off and act like it’s true. Your head is here, but your thoughts aren’t. You’re in the future, you’re in the past, but never in the present. So, you are just existing not really living.
So tell me are you living or just existing?
I am like a tree within the wind strong enough to stand on my own roots and hold up.My branches are like the pieces of my heart and emotions,bending, snapping, and tearing apart into pieces.The trunk of the tree is planted in the ground,just as I try to be strong at times.A tree strong enough to withhold a tornado,as I’m I withholding the storms of life.Maybe the leaves on the branches:represent their struggle and insecurities just like me.Each new season the trees leaves fall off and are renewed. Just as I with every season I go through.
it has always been you from the beginning of time, before you were in your mothers womb. I have called you for a purpose in this life.You have been choosen to live a life and walk with I god by your side. See if you read Jeremiah 29:11; You will see you are made for my plan. “A plan made to prosper you and not to harm you, a plan to give you hope and a future.”
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.